Saturday, December 20, 2008

Losing and Letting Go

Obviously, it's been a little while. A little thing called Finals came up. Haven't received my official grades, but I'm quite positive I got A- in my hard 770 class, and in my 701 class I have no idea, but every paper I got back I got an A on, so I'm feeling confident.

Of course the winter break hasn't really felt like one, the social calendar has been filling up, but that's a good thing. It's been a pretty hectic week and in that chaos I lost my keys in my car one night, and tonight I went to the movies with my phone and came out having no idea where it went. It did occur to me that I unconsciously lost it because I was awoken this morning by texts from the past (i.e., texts unintended for me sent accidentally by people I haven't talk to in months if not longer). I should just text them back to take my number out of their phone, but maybe instead I went ahead and lost their number by losing my phone. Really though, I'd rather find my phone, and I have no idea where this serious case of absent-minded-ness is coming from.

Not really sure what's going on in general, as this season I am just not feeling Christmas-y. I'm not enjoying all the typical things I love about the season. Usually, every year I love putting together my Happy Holiday cards, writing at least one a day from Thanksgiving to New Year. This year, I've hardly done any and the ones I did pound out were yesterday. I think my friends and I have scrapped presents all together, which is fine, seeing as I can't really afford much at this point, nor would I know what to get them if I did. Sacred immediate family night of Christmas Eve is even up for grabs as to what's going to happen.
The crazier part, is that it's ok. Things change, nostalgia is nostalgia for a reason; it's in the past. If it's not enjoyable any more, maybe it's time to let it go. I'm never really good at letting things go. At all. Might as well ride the wave while I'm on it, see where this holiday season goes.

Moving past the holiday season, a new year for the world and for myself is coming up - the year of 2009 and my 27th birthday. I'm not really looking for a lot of celebrating, but if you're wondering about what's on my ever growing wish list:
Large unisex t-shirt from ThisAmericanLife, or the season 1 dvd.
or, ya know, possibly a new phone.